I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm not who you wanted 

and all you can say is I'm sorry, 

because that's all I am to you,

 just a broken piece

 of a whole other other self that's missing. 

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I lost you

and all that is left

 is a shell of the girl I once knew,

 but I can never let go of the past. 

I'm sorry

I'm sorry are the words written in my skin,

 for the one person who needs it the most

 is the one that never lets it in. 

I'm sorry

I'm sorry for every hurtful word,

 thought, or action 

that pushed you to the ground 

and made you feel like trash.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough

 to hide you from it all,

 and hold your hand till the end 

so you'd never have to feel small. 

I'm sorry

I'm sorry that you're so beautiful,

 strong, and heartfelt 

but no one else sees it, 

not even me. 

I'm sorry

I'm sorry that the world forgets you exist 

and the only one that matters

thinks it's because you're worthless. 

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm hateful

 and make you feel stupid 

for just being you,

 when I know that you're brilliant 

and braver than you think.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry for the lies ingrained in my mind

 that tell me you're ugly

 and you'll never be loved.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry it's me,

 who cries as you slowly start to drown,

 and I'm the one holding you under.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry is all you'll ever hear,

 because no matter how hard you try

 you'll never feel like you're enough. 

I'm sorry 

I'm sorry I'm you,

 the one person who should love you the most, 

yet stands there feeling sorry for herself.